Resolutions

A New Year.  

So many people make resolutions and as someone who makes random resolutions all year long, I'm not the only one...for once.  For once, it's a normal activity to take part in.  This year, the plan overall is to take care of myself and get my sh*t together which brings me exactly to #1...

1. Get my sh*t together.

This is more or less my catchall.  There's a lot on my life that I feel could use work and damn it I'm going to do it and I'm going to make myself proud of me in 2013.

2. Take care of myself.

I let make my weight yo-yo, I give up on eating healthy and binge on crap when I feel sad, I put myself in situations I don't need to be in, I eat til I hate myself, or I starve myself, and I have other bad habits.  So I'm going to treat my body like a temple and regardless of my emotions I'm going to take care of it like I love it.

3. Stop letting the things other people say dictate how I'm feeling.

My father is an angry person and routinely tells me that I'm never going to make it, or I'm never going to be or do anything with my life, I never finish anything, I'm not as smart as I think I am, or just plain to shut the hell up.  Also, my cousin who was here basically told my parents to put my stuff and my kids' stuff in trash bags and tell us to go.  Then my dad fell while he was conveniently outside turning his lungs black and bringing in his third hand smoke in what could only be an effort to exacerbate my son's respiratory issues. Of course I was the only one capable of getting my dad back upright because that's what I do. Of course he doesn't know that my parents practically strongarmed me into coming home and now ask me not to leave due to their health problems.  He doesn't know that so why should I care what he says. My first reaction was "do you realize I would effing love that?!?!?!" And then it was "who the eff are you to judge me???" And I was actually really upset by it, but why should I get my panties all in a bunch because someone else wants to act like a ?  I'm not going to.  Not any more.  Well, at least I'm going to attempt to tell myself that it is not that serious and to stop taking everything so personally.

4. Remember that failure is not an option.

Sounds harsh, but ever since I heard Jiro from Jiro Dreams of Sushi say that's what he told his son, it kind of clicked and I use it as a manta when I feel like giving up.

5. Network.

I never get out of the house.  I feel like I never have a conversation with anyone who is anywhere near my age group.  I feel out of the loop and well, like I'm getting dumber every day.  I would love to be around people with whom I can have intellectual discussion and from whom I can learn things, further network, etc etc.

6. Make efforts not to rot my brain. 

I do make some efforts already to keep my brain active, but sometimes it feels like as I'm getting older my brain is just rotting.  So, while I plan to take care of myself physically, emotionally, career-wise, etc I cannot forget to take care of myself cognitively as well.

Well, finally this year's resolutions are ones I should more or less be able to keep.

What are your New Year's Resolutions?